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Taxicab Duets

September 18, 2010 in dublin, Ex-Patriate Games, Ireland, Looking, spazarific, trinity college dublin

Drinks at Kennedy’s with my former classmates turns into a tipsy nighttime walk through City Centre turns into drinks and dancing at 4 Dame Lane. Untiss untiss untiss. Untiss untiss untiss. Talk of our novels, talk of our poetry, talk of our master’s portfolios; of marriage and children and Beckett and Hardy and confessional poets like Plath but not like Plath because Plath was all right, but screw Anne Sexton and her attention-seeking ilk. Untiss untiss untiss. Untiss untiss untiss. Girls in sequin dresses. Men in pointy shoes. A disco ball that spins leopard spot-shaped flecks of light onto the walls, the floor, our faces. And another thing about Hardy… *crash.* White wine and sparkly shards of glass all over the table. Ho, snap. Look what you did. We are drunken writers and we are beautiful.

And then, later, not sure when, I’m danced out – tapped out – and so I say my goodbyes. I weave past the crowds of city folk packed around the entrance of the club, past the neckers and the college boys yakking in shopfronts. My high heels clack on the sidewalk, threaten to stick between cobblestones as I head towards the relative calm of Exchequer Street. The lights shine soft on the buildings. For once, I’m more tired and tipsy than I am stingy. I hail a cab.

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Photo Friday: Cats and Roman Ruins

August 27, 2010 in Italia, Looking

Cat, always to be/

found prowling Rome’s ancient stones/

You and all your ilk.


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Shut Up and Drive

August 26, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking, spazarific

I’m sitting on the beach with my mother’s cousin, Flora, and we’re watching the waves rush towards the shore; rush away from the shore; rush towards the shore; rush away from the shore. My toes are in the sand and I smell salt rising from the sea; sunscreen rising from my skin. It’s almost sunset, but the sky is still light and in the distance, a group of young men is fishing at the water’s edge. They cast their reels into the waves. They shake them in anticipation. They draw back empty hooks.

“You know,” says Flora. “Summer season will be over soon.”

“Yes,” I say.

“I’m going back to Rome this week. All the other tourists will be leaving, too.”

“I suppose they will.”

“This part of town will be empty and sad. You’re on the outskirts, you know. It’ll just get worse in the winter – gray and cold and isolated. Only the locals will be left, and they’ll all be in city centre. The centre is far from where you live.”

I fall silent and look out at the waves. We’ve had this discussion before. I don’t like this discussion. It’s a dose of reality that I’ve been avoiding, preferring to bury my feet in the sand and stare down at a public transportation schedule that shows three pick up times; make multiple trips on my bike to the supermarket; dig through websites to find the best way to get from this beach town to any of the larger ones in the region.

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Hungry. Will Stand on Ridiculously Long Line for Seafood.

August 25, 2010 in Italia, Looking, Oishii, spazarific

Walking around City Centre I suddenly realize that, after the 25-minute bike ride into town, I’m feeling too lazy to cook dinner. Well, am I living on the beach or what? Heck yes, I’m living on the beach. That means fresh seafood at bargain price all over the dang place. So I head to a fish restaurant – a Pescheria -  and park my bike against a tree. It’s a large shack, with “take away” written in English underneath the large neon name. A dry/erase sign reads: Fried Calamari 5 euro. Roasted potatoes 3 euro. Mixed antipasto 6 euro. I’m sold.

I look up. A long line is snaking outside of the shack, arching past me. I hear Neapolitan tourists shouting: Do we take a number or what? How do we do this? Children are crying: How much longer do we have to wait, Pappa? Can’t we get a pizza instead?

I check my watch: it’s 9:15pm. It’s the same old death match – laziness versus greed. Greed ftw, every time.

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The Mime & I

August 24, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking, spazarific, writing

I heard him before I saw him: Signorina! You, the one who’s getting wet. It was a mime – painted gold, dressed as Casanova.

This was December 2005. Rome. La Fontana di Trevi. It was pouring, thus, my getting wet. Thus, my chilly reply: Mimes don’t talk.

His name was Marius. He was Polish. I’ll buy you a coffee. C’mon – what else is there to do in the rain? He had a point. He pulled out a duffel bag from behind a tree. We went to a cafe – espresso for him; hot chocolate for me. Passerby gaped through the wet windows.

Q: So what does one talk about with a mime, anyway?

A: SEX. Who knew? The mime took his role as Casanova seriously: Let’s go to my place. But why not? I’m Casanova; no woman can resist! I only need ten minutes. I looked longingly at the door – still raining. Then, an exclamation point zoomed off the top of Casanova’s wig: I’ll change out of costume. You’ll see I’m a regular guy. He grabbed his bag and disappeared into the bathroom.

Some minutes later, Marius emerged – rugged, good-looking, with a shaved head, wearing a black sweater. But he wasn’t so confident without his pantaloons. Now he only sat silently, shredding a napkin. Gone were the come-ons. Gone was the grin.

The cafe clock ticked.

Finally, he said: I guess I’ll go home.

And he disappeared into the rain.

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A Thousand Words

August 13, 2010 in Italia, Looking, spazarific

Me and my shadow

Question: How are you?

Answer: Well. Happy. Calm. Exuberant. Inspired. Curious. Dreamy. Tanned. Excellent….

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Perfect Strangers

August 10, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking, spazarific, The Children

“Listen,” says my mother. “I think you need to go over and visit Zia Malevola.”

Zia Malevola is my mother’s aunt. In the summers, she lives across the hall from my Nonna Teresa’s old apartment – the place I am now calling “home.” Zia Malevola is 80, and her husband passed away ten years ago. She has two grown children – my mother’s cousins, Flora and Giovanni. She comes to the beach with Flora, who lives in Rome. I haven’t seen Malevola or Flora since the first day we met last week, when Malevola heard me grunting to open the rusted garage door and they immediately invited me over for dinner. Tender roast veal in a heady broth of plum tomatoes, wine, carrots, celery and rosemary; I inhaled juicy slice after juicy slice, and as I chewed, they asked: What are you doing here in Italy? How long are you staying? Your Italian is quite good. You understand us, don’t you? You’ll have more veal, won’t you? Where were you living before – your mother said China? Oh. Japan. Mamma mia. What were you doing – teaching English? How about that?

After dinner, Flora showed me where to throw out the recycling and as we walked back to the apartment building, we ran into one of her childhood friends, Elvira, who has a summer apartment in a building down the street. If Flora and Zia Malevola asked me 100 questions, Elvira asked a thousand. Your Italian is very good. What do you mean it’s no good? You even form the phrases very well. How old are you? Well, you don’t look it. How is Isa? How is Roberto? Where do you work? What do you do? How long are you staying? Where did you live before? Mamma mia, even in Japan? What were you doing in Japan? Did you like teaching? The students must have been very respectful and polite, weren’t they? What do they say in Japan when they’re hungry? What do they say when they’re angry? She’s a nice girl, Flora. Compliments to your family.

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I Burattini nella Piazza

August 6, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking

A puppet show in the piazza on Saturday night; two euro a seat. Counts and magistrates, bumbling men-a-courting, damsels in distress. Everybody gets slapped. Everybody gets kissed. Everybody gets head butted. Everybody gets called cretino. Popcorn from an old-fashioned machine – 2.25 for a large.

Fun for big kids, too.

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Danger, Danger; Low Voltage

August 5, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking, spazarific

The city in which I now live is small enough that I can cross it by bicycle, and small enough that I already know where to find things I need. I’ve got my butcher, I’ve got my fish vendor. I’ve got my cosmetics emporium. I know where to get household stuff and I know where to find tea. I am absolutely delighted to find that groceries here are much cheaper here than in Dublin, as are meals in the event that I do choose to eat out of doors. There are upstairs neighbors who have offered to help me with anything I need, and a sea full of aquamarine waves to cool me off when it gets too hot. There is very little – if any – violent crime. There are no sharks in the sea. Eight days in, and it appears that the living here on the Italian beach will be easy.

Too easy.

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Beach Shoes to Fill

August 3, 2010 in Ex-Patriate Games, Italia, Looking, spazarific

Before I left Florida last month, my mother gave me a pair of shoes. I took one look at them and knew without a doubt that Diego would have something to say when I got back to New York. Sure enough, he did.

Hey, sis. Why does mom think you’re joining a convent?

Har, har, very funny, Diego.

No, really, sis. ‘Cause I mean… those shoes….

Okay, okay.

I brought the shoes with me to Latina. I wore them to the beach yesterday.

Somehow, they seem to fit in just fine over here.

And Diego doesn’t know everything.